So it has been 4 months (almost to the day) since I wrote in (on?) my blog. I just recently looked back at it and remembered being pregnant.....and that damn 40 hour labor. Definitely a love/hate thing happening there. But at the end of that insane experience of turning food into a human I have the world's most amazing baby boy. I mean, seriously, I dont think it is possible to love anything as much as I love Holden. He's just....amazing. And I love him even more every day!
So- a few things to catch whoever is reading my blog up to date....which Im fairly sure is just my mother- hi mom.
1) I took a 2 month long "maternity leave". Why the quotation marks you ask? Oh that would just be because I suck at it. I was constantly checking in with Amanda, answering emails, and attending a styled shoot for magazine. Im pretty sure that Im a shark- if I stop moving, Ill die. But yeah- I am full force back into work for 11:11 Events and loving every minute of it.
That is actually a lie. Im not a huge fan of being away from Holdito. If I could just bring him with me to every meeting, site visit, event, networking happy hour, I totes would. I am still trying to figure out a good balance between mom/event planner. Im sure it will happen organically.
Oh yeah, and I say totes now. Mark hates it. Which just makes me want to say it more. Totes funny.
2) It took all of about.....mmmm....4 days for me to realize that being a mom is tough! I say 4 days because the first 3 were in the hospital and those nurses are rockstars. Like, seriously, someone give them a raise. But for reals y'all, I read all the books and was prepared in my head for all the sleep loss, poop, and breastfeeding drama but in reality- NOPE. I will say that if it were not for my amazing husband, Im pretty sure I wouldve broken down the first day back. I absolutely HATE waking up. Always have, always will. I love to sleep. LOVE IT. So that was the biggest adjustment for me. Poop, eh. It happens. *see what I did there?* And we eventually figured out the breastfeeding thing, although, ouch.
3) Last but not least- I feel fat. Like, all the time. Which, for those who really know me, is not a good thing for my brain. And it doesnt help that in my line of work I am constantly having to go to events and see myself in post pictures. I have been trying my damndest to eat right and exercise but its presenting to be somewhat challenging. I have about 15 lbs to lose to get back to where I was. 20 would be even better. Id like to attribute 10 lbs to my tripled-in-size milk makers, but I know in all honesty they are but 3. 5 if I havent fed the baby in a while. Plus I just had some blood work done at the drs and it turns out that my cholesterol is crazy bad for my age. Which is insane seeing as I honestly dont eat junk food but who knows, maybe spinach salads are secretly bad for you. Point of the story is, mama needs to get her groove back.
Really thats what motivated me to get back on my blog. I feel like I should document the process for accountability purposes. And the thing is, Im not going to be screaming from the rooftops for everyone to read this- I dont even really want people to read this until after I lose the weight but still, it'll be here. Frozen on some technological tablet, that can't be burned or thrown away. I know I can deactivate my account but once somethings on the internet its there forever. It can be found again. Thus brings us to the here and now.
I, Susannah Joy Wynne Mikulin, do so solemnly vow to myself to lose weight. Not for or because of anyone other than myself. It about that time.
So starting tomorrow, I plan on documenting this transition from the beginning. Stats and all. UGH. But I know in the end it'll be good. Dammit- it'll be great! Im actually pretty dang excited.
So, until then, Suzy- OUT!
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